Looking inward requires us to be intentional every moment of our lives. For some of these moments, I managed to muster the courage to face the truth about my life, but to be honest, I only did so when it was easy. I only allowed myself to be vulnerable to a certain extent, when it still falls within my comfort zone. I am not sure what it is about being vulnerable that scares me, but I know that the need to face up is shining a light on the darkness that lurks in my life. It takes bravery to come out and take the step towards authenticity. And while I am just wavering back and forth, I figured this space will be the best place to begin the thought process that will eventually push me into action.
Pausing... it seems simple yet I know that for the most part of my life, I have been trying to elude the stillness that is begging to just be. Even if I have practiced 21 days of prayer and fasting for the past 4 years of my life, those moments were so filled with the activities that fill my mind. Contemplating, planning, reminiscing, hoping... Those moments were never about just being still. This year, I began a practice of stillness. I am slowly gaining an awareness that is so powerful that it compels me to PAUSE.
There are so many questions we ask about life, hoping we would find the answers to - but if we keep looking outward, we will never find them. The answers lie within us, we just need to listen.
I am embracing this uneasy feeling for the purpose of being in the moment. I am really glad to have this time to write about this. I am not sure which way to go, I just know that this space has been waiting for many years... and I'll allow this to just be and see where it takes me.
I am a lover of life, beauty, and vitality. I believe that we are creators of our own reality. It is important that our thoughts, feelings, speech, and actions reflect our true, essential nature. Through stillness, we can find our true selves. My desire is to share the journey into myself in the hopes of creating a space that connects with others who find themselves on the same path. I hope that you will find inspiration in this place.