LET YOURSELF BE SILENTLY DRAWN
BY THE STRANGE PULL OF WHAT YOU REALLY LOVE.
IT WILL NOT LEAVE YOU ASTRAY.
Our life's journey brings various people and experiences into our field of awareness. It causes waves of thoughts and emotions to move us to a deeper understanding of ourselves and of those around us. There is one most important thing that I believe we must remember throughout this journey - that regardless of the nature of our experience, our job is to accept and surrender to it. Resistance to the here and now creates currents that go against the flow of life. It makes the terrain all the more difficult to navigate. We are naturally wired to resist, it takes effort and intentionality to surrender and trust that life is unfolding the way it is supposed to. When you think about it, all we have is this moment, really. So, I would say that the power is in the now. Because it is only in this present moment when we can choose. We can choose to be joyful, grateful, and loving. Or we can choose to not be any of those things. The outcome of the next moment, we call the future, depends greatly upon the choices we make in the present moment.
At different points in our lives, we experience varying degrees of pain. During these heightened moments, it is easy to believe that we are going through the most hurtful moments of our lives. And yet when we look back weeks, months, or years thereafter, the experience is nothing but a distant memory. I believe that the power is in the here and now. It is where the pain is so intense, it is when it hurts the most that we have the choice to either suffer or grow from the experience. The pain that we are feeling is but a recent memory, it is not the here and now. At this moment, while we hold the remnants of our pain, we can look at it with gratitude because it gives rise to a deeper and greater awareness of ourselves. I am inspired by the thoughts of Jon Kabat-Zinn about healing and curing. He says, "Healing does not mean curing, although the two words are often used interchangeably. While it may not be possible for us to cure ourselves or to find someone who can, it is always possible for us to heal ourselves. Healing implies the possibility for us to relate differently to illness, disability, even death, as we learn to see with eyes of wholeness. Healing is coming to terms with things as they are." It is in the here and now where we can choose to relate differently to our pain. This is the time when it is more important for us to be mindful of our thoughts and feelings.
When an intense wave of sorrow and despair sneaks into the crevices of our lives it can feel as if our hearts have been shattered into pieces. As we slowly pick ourselves up from the brokenness of our human experience, it is important to bring to mind all the things that we have learned about life. This is my conclusion: the pain- this pain- is an experience of contrast between the place where we are and where we wish to be. The key is to lean into it. Pain is an opportunity for growth. It allows for the expansion of our awareness. It brings us closer to our heart's desires. By letting go of resistance and finding ease in the present moment, we open the path for true love and abounding happiness to ensue. It creates a very potent ground for our hopes and dreams to come to us. It establishes a deep and more meaningful connection to our inner being, our highest self. The secret to this journey is braving vulnerability. Contrary to popular belief, vulnerability is not a weakness. It is a powerful act of courage. Very few of us wear our hearts on our sleeves, it is not something that the world encourages because it puts us at a risk of being seen. But you know what? I believe there is grandeur in the willingness to be seen. It does not matter how hard we fall because we know that throughout the process, we have presented our best and truest selves to the ones we love. There are no regrets, just gratitude for the rich experience of what we call life.
I am a lover of life, beauty, and vitality. I believe that we are creators of our own reality. It is important that our thoughts, feelings, speech, and actions reflect our true, essential nature. Through stillness, we can find our true selves. My desire is to share the journey into myself in the hopes of creating a space that connects with others who find themselves on the same path. I hope that you will find inspiration in this place.